Naked Truth About My Working Life

Ok, finally this is one of the 2 entries that I meant. 1st thing 1st, things are getting better in the office and I love my job so much! Nazar already went back to PMO since his attachment period has ended. But we received 2 new faces in BWE - Ashraf and Amran. And it took only seconds for us to get closed. Pleasant guys. Good for the teamwork.

They are experienced staff, not fresh graduates. So far, only 4 of us (me, Shawn, Gan and Larissa) who came in as fresh graduates. So, experienced staff are good for our burden. Huhu... But, both of them will be placed under operation division, making it 5 operation engineers in total currently. Please recruit more planning engineers Raymond... Huhu...



Job as BWE Planning Engineer

Before this, I was a bit disappointed when I was required to be placed under planning division. Trust me, in BWE, when you are in the operation division, you'll have more time to learn. I used to be in that division for a week and enjoyed the learning process. In planning, most of the department's jobs are dumped onto you. Seems like planning is very much correlated to paperworks, presentations and meetings, even though most of them are related to operational issues.

But then, again, something happens for a reason. Now I prefer staying in the planning division. Planning handles workloads, operation handles responsibilities. Operation people always get stress when it comes to making decisions and I don't prefer that sort of stress. Hehe... At least for now. I have a few new responsibilities that I need to cope up with. Enough. At least for now...

So now I'm living in a bundle of workloads. You know what, keje planning section itself dah berlambak2, but we, the planning people still need to know about the operation. And operation people do not necessarily know about our nature of jobs. Contoh, everytime pegi meeting, most of the issue adalah pasal operation, but dah jadi tradition orang planning yang kene attend and present pasal operation untuk meeting tue. Memang okay jek, but when it comes to the Q&A, haaa mampus nak menjawab if taktau pape (which normally happens to me. duuuhh...)

It is one of my biggest challenge. Normally, kene tahu pasal operation dulu baru boleh masuk planning so that we'll know what we're going to plan. Everyone in this department used to experience being in the operation environment except me. Trus jump masuk planning. I can say that I just plan the operation sequence blindly before, need a lot of helps from others, but then it was just for the sake of chasing the dateline only. Tak sempat nak paham bebetul ape yang saye buat.

Kat BWE jugak, terpaksa banyak cover keje orang yang last minit, nak kene submit baru teringat nak buat. I admit, I'm easy to be clumsy when new workloads come when I still haven't finish mine. Everytime dapat task, objektif saye nak siap dengan cepat dan berkualiti. Bila last minit sangat, susah nak capai objective tu, tue yang jadi kelam kabut. Pastu orang lak sound cakap saye kelam kabut sangat. Padahal saya kelam kabut sebab nak siapkan keje diorang.

But honestly, most of the time, I take things so seriously. Maybe I'm not fully adjusted to the job yet. Sebab tue nak terer cepat. So, what I need now is just ENOUGH TIME to learn. Macam zaman belajar dulu. Work hard doing the assignment and project just for the sake of meeting the dateline. Kadang2 tak paham pun ape yang dibuat. So, lebih kurang camtulah permulaan saya kat BWE nie.

Dah tak sanggup to look and feel silly in front of the SSI people. The faster I master everything about the well services, the faster I can lay my back. Some friends always say this to me "Rileks aaa.. jangan push sangat keje, rilek2 jer.." Sebab nak rilek cepatlah saya terpaksa work harder untuk cecepat terer. I wan't my job to be a normal daily routine that I can handle easily. Trust me, saye bukanlah gila kerja, saya gila nak cepat pandai so that takyah stress bila tahu ade bende yang saya perlu tahu tapi tak tahu lagi. Heh..

At least now I know what I should know. It's just I need plenty of time to learn. Workloads keep coming in between that pause my learning process. Before this, I always didn't know where or how to start. Not enough seniors to guide us here. What we did was just learning through the experience and mistakes. Again, just need an ample time to learn, which is very hard to find, atau lebih tepat, tak pandai bahagi masa. Haha!



Husband and Miri

This is funny. I really have no idea what had happened. Husband's name was said to be sent to SKO twice but there wasn't any calls from the HR yet. Hubby has done a lot to follow up but so far we don't receive any good outcome yet. Even saye pun dah try pegi jumpe orang2 yang sepatutnya saya jumpe kat SKO ni to ask about my husband's status, tapi susahlah nak cakap. Senang cite, takde rezeki lagilah. I don't know why, but I know it happens for a reason.

Saya pun malas nak put high hope untuk bende nie, sebab kadang2 manusia nie manis mulut jek. So, saye takmau dah stress2 fikir pasal hasben nak datang sini. Currently, hubby comes here every 2 weeks. Good enough already even though sometimes rasa complicated gak sebab expenditure banyak habis kat tambang flight. Now, kami tengah slow2 cari keje kat company lain kat Miri nie gak. Taknaklah hoping sangat pada Petronas nih.

But honestly, by looking at my working life right now, it's currently better if hubby is not here yet. I'm in the development phase of my working life, where I need to put a lot of focuses to learn and master my job. Since saye nie jenis family type, I know that bila hubby datang, I'll be working on being a good wife instead of being a good worker. I can't afford to split my focus yet. At least for now. By having my adik at home pun commitment saya dah ter-offset dah sket. Huhu..

It is so true that women cannot handle more than 3 things at a time. Memang lah bleh actually, but each thing won't be entitled for 100% performance score. We always want to score 4.0 pointer when our actual capability is only for 3.0. So, it's your choice, either to crash yourself to score 4.0 or adjust the subjects you are going to take accordingly. In my case, I prefer to adjust the subjects by taking lesser responsibilities at a time. When maturity grows up, I may want to upgrade it.

Conclusion, I still wan't my husband to be here (really mean it, miss him all the time) but at the moment, being like this is the best thing for me I guess. Only for now...

Ermm tapi kan, how to say this ek? I want my husband to work in Miri, but I think I prefer not in the same building. Cane nak cakap ek? Ok, contoh sekarang kan, hubby datang sini every 2 weeks. So, sepanjang masa berjauhan tue, kami saling rindu merindu (aihh cam gedik lak bunyi. haha!) And bile dah jumpe,kami akan lebih appreaciate masa2 bersama tue. Bak kata pepatah, bila selalu merasai kepahitan, kita akan lebih menghargai kemanisan. Rindu tue, di sebalik keperitan, ade keindahan dia tersendiri.

So, same thing. Saya nak biar ada jarak masa sket di antara kami so that kami akan lebih menghargai detik masa bersama2. Entahlah, saya pun tak sure apa yang terbaik untuk saya. Yang saya tahu, apa2 yang berlaku pun, I'll try my best to adapt to the new situation instead of try to change it. So, ape2 yang saya dapat nanti, saya redha jelah yang itu mungkin yang terbaik untuk saye. Syukur dengan apa yang ada... To Allah, please provide us the right path. Guide us. Help us. Love us...



Career Path

People keep discussing about career development, about how to move to E2 faster, etc. Saye taktau nape saya kurang berminat dengan bende2 alah nih. I used to mention this before. My ambition is to be a good housewife who serves well for the family and goes straight to heaven. Haha! But then, here I am now - falling into the SKG 10, one of the most challenging SKG and has the highest technical allowance.

That is one. 2nd, my background was Civil Engineering, never put any interest in the petroleum subject. Never took one. But then I fall into the petroleum field which forces me to take extra efforts to learn. Everything was not in the plan but as always, saya percaya dengan hikmah Allah. And saye syukur sebab jarang2 orang dapat peluang nie. Kat SKO nie, berlambak orang nak mintak tukar masuk BWE tapi tak dapat.

Ntahlah, kalau saya kaya-raya, saya bayar jek scholar Petronas nie and dok umah sambil buat bisnes sendiri. I did well in this before, with full enjoyment. Tapi bila difikir2kan balik, sapelaaaa nak kasi saya RM4850 sebulan free2. Benefits pun banyak. Keje best, boss pun best. Ape lagi yang saya nak. Syukur jelah and go for it Kunaz!

And to go for it, I need to put my full commitment. I don't work for status or whatsoever, I work for my own satisfaction. I'm so afraid when people asks "What do you think you want to be after 10 years in Petronas?" Erkk... What I care now is just to do my job well. I never dream to be a manager or even a BD. Just give it to others who want it the most. Susahla if seme orang nak jadi BD kan... Haha!

But on top of all, saye rasa saya cakap seme nie sebab so far focus saya masih limited lagi. Let say one day well services nie dah dalam tangan saya, mesti dah takde mende nak pikir, mesti kene pikir pasal lain. Pasal nak jadi BD ke. Hahaha! Joking dude! Tak terberanak laaa saye dok pikul tanggungjawab bsar2. Haha!



Conclusion

Ade 1 movie tue, cite pasal sorang perempuan yang sangat gigih dengan kerjaya dia, at the same time nak jaga relationship dengan boyfriend dia. But, her job cam menagih komitmen dia yang terlalu tinggi, boyfriend plak selalu merajuk, till dia terlalu pnat nak handle 2 things at a time. Ade 1 sentence, lbih kurang camni ah dialog dia

"Sorry, I was having a personal issue just now. Seems like our relationship starts to ruin"

"That's the sign that you do well in your career. Let me know if your relationship really ruins. It means that you are ready for a promotion"

Owh hell! Mintak simpang malaikat 44! (nape 44 ek? huhu...) Semoga dijauhkanlah situasi camtu. Saye takmau la keje efek family or family efek keje. Saye nak both lines are parallel to each other. So far, I don't own the skills to draw both lines parallel at the same time yet. Let me draw the 1st line first, at the same time preparing myself for the 2nd line. There will be time that both lines will move up simultaneously. Can't wait for that to happen.



P/S : Nak pegi amik hubby kat airport Miri japgi... =)

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