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Tired

Lately, I always feel tired. I used to work 15 hours per day, continuously for 8 months. I used to sleep only 2 hours daily. I used to do more than what I'm doing now, but my level of tiredness is truly significant now. Penat yang teramat2 and I think I know why. I never feel tired of doing things that I'd love to do, but I will feel exhausted if I do things insincerely.

I'm tired of cleaning up the mess made by others. I'm tired of initiating any group works. I'm tired of being considered as a leader who holds all the responsibilites while they don't have any. I'm tired of thinking the solutions for other people's problems. I'm tired of being tired for others. And I'm really tired of doing things with insincerity. Owh God, grant me a sincere heart please... I can't stand being tired for petty things like these....

My advise to myself, do things sincerely, or else just don't do it. You got nothing except tiredness and heartache. But how co…

Petronas Interview = Heartless

Petronas interview. Walaupun sudah 3 hari berlalu tapi masih segar di ingatan. Interview yang terpaksa saya tempuhi secara paksa rela. Well, I’ve planned everything very well before. Nak pegi interview next semester so that it won’t disturb my week yg mmg akan sentiasa busy. Lagipun, saya sgt prefer utk tidak bekerja dgn Petronas. Semoga saya di-release-kan dgn free of charge nnt. Hehe… Tapi tue la, kite hanya mampu merancang, tapi mungkin rancangan Allah lagi hebat. Lagipun, saya patut bersyukur, ramai yang nak interview first batch tapi tak dapat.
I didn’t prepare well for the interview. I don’t know what had happened to me last week. I was bloody heartless with everything (haha!). I felt completely hollow. Walaupun ramai kawan saya yang Thursday session cakap the interview was horror, that couldn’t scare me even a bit. Saye interview pagi jumaat puku 8 a.m tapi petang Khamis tue baru saya baru sibuk2 nak fotostat sijil, baru nak buat resume, tumpang print resume kat printer orang,…

Hehehe...

Hehehe.... sinis sungguh gelakanku ini... Hmmm... Baru bbrp hari lepas saye sedikit terkilan setelah mendengar berita perkapelan seorang rakan saya yang baik. Ntahla, dgr khabarnya, pasangannya ada rekod buruk dalam soal percintaan. Saya cuma risau rakan saya yang baik ini akan kecewa di hari muka. Tapi saya takkan semudah itu utk menilai dan menghukum seseorang. Sebab saya percaya akan kuasa cinta itu. Cinta mampu mengubah alim ulama menjadi syaitan and vice versa. And yang paling penting, saya sangat percaya pada rezeki dan jodoh. Kalau ade jodoh, whatever it comes, jodoh takkan ke mana....

Kemudian harini ini saya tersangat gembira kerana mendengar berita ttg perkapelan seorang lagi rakan saya dengan seorang lagi rakan saya. 2-2 baik dan saya sgt merestui hubungan mereka (erkk..cam parents diorg la plak).

Sebelum ini, slh seorg kawan saya yang baik ini pernah kapel dgn seorg lagi kawan saya yang juge baik. Tapi sayang, jodoh tak panjang. Saya sedih mereka clash tapi sekarang saya gem…

Accident

I've been to the Petronas interview today. It was a good one but I don't feel like writing about it now. Later maybe... As headlined above, I've been involved in an accident this morning, soon after my interview was over. Zak drove the car and saye dok sblah kiri tue. Zak nak park kat side parking kat one way road dpan kopetro tu. Parking masuk bontot kete lu. Semasa Zak tgh gigih berusaha nak masuk parking, I have sensed something bad. I could hear the vrooming sound from a distance. I could sense that someone was speeding real fast at the moment. I could sense that something was going to be very wrong, and here it was, a red wira hit my left door with a great impact. It sounded like an explosion. Bumper dpan kereta tue siap melayang2 lagi.

I was in a heartless mode by that time and I could maintain myself that way throughout the accident. Tenang sungguh saya menghadapi accident itu. My left door cannot be opened, so I couldn't get out of the car. Masa tue, ade a few j…

Hari Yang Malang

Hari ini saya buat lab. Saya pergi kutip air taik di STP kul 9.30. Setup2 barang sampai kul 12, pastu pergi jemput mekanik kete kat taman maju sbb kete lily xley start. Pastu sambung wat lab sampai kul 3. Hari ini second day saye datang bulan, waktu di mana flow ia sgt heavy tp saye tidak menyangka se-heavy ini. Walaupun telah memakai pad yang mempunyai daya protection paling tinggi (overnight + wing + double anti-leakage channel), saye masih mengalami serious leakage. Sebbaik etty perasan.

Walaupun mengalami kebocoran, saye terpaksa ke post office after buat lab sbb nak pos barang yang customer order (pos laju masa dia sampai kul 3.30 jek). Saya cuba masuk ke post office dgn memakai lab coat utk meng-cover kesan kebocoran di pakaian saya, tapi malang, lab coat juga terkena kesan bocor. Saya dgn gamble nyer masuk ke post ofis jugak....

Lps tu saya balik ke blok. Semasa sedang memanjat tangga, saya ternampak 2 org adik cleaner sedang mencuci tiang tangge. Saye lari dengan dahsyatnya utk …

Take a Break

Rase cam dah lama tak berblog, nie semua dr shark nye pasal! Two subjects of his is equivalent to 8 subjects of the previous semesters. Every single second seemed too precious to be wasted, so don't really have time to update this blog even though there were lots of things I would like to share here. Damn! I've forgotten everything. It's ok, it shows that I'm easy to forgive and forget then. Haha! And a big thanks to this mid-term break, now I have time to stretch my legs and spin my body happily.

But dude, as long as you are still being labelled as a student, there won't be any long-term happiness. Mid-term break means you don't need to go the lectures for a while only, but it won't help us to resist the workloads. I've got to submit 3 assignments + 1 presentation + 3 tests + 1 interview after the break ends and I need to do the FYP lab 2-3 times during this break. 1 lab session will take 8 hours long, standing and running all the time and take a break …

Qabil Khusry Qabil Igam

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Last Saturday, saye and Zakuan pergi menonton wayang di TGV Jaya Jusco. Setelah berjaya menghabiskan minggu yang memenatkan, we thought that we should be rewarded for that. But, we didn't go to Ipoh just for the watching purpose. Yes, as usual, business comes first then dah setel seme baru leh enjoy.

Normally, if we watch movies in a cinema, we prefer to watch the lightest movie available at the moment. Nak wat camne, saye nie jenis emo and serius gile time menonton. Even tgk movie kat bilik pon saye akan serius gaban. Kawan2 saye pon perasan nie... So, saye tak boleh tgk cite heavy2 kat cinema, nnt saya terbawak2 and asyik terpikir2 jek, rosak lak nnt moment kitorg kluar aritu. Huhu... Antara cerita berat yang pernah saya tgk di cinema adalah matrix reloaded dgn aisyah.. kuar cinema trus migrain. Huhu...

So that day, we decided to watch Qabil Khusry Qabil Igam, a malay movie arahan Cik Azlina Pa’Wan. We chose that movie sbb kami bajet cite tu…

Busy?

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I only take four subjects for this semester, the least number of subjects I've ever taken in UTP - normally the range was from 6 to 8 subjects per semester. But 2 of them are taught by Dr Shark (including FYP) and everyone knows how it's going to be when taking his class. A mountain of workloads are seemed to be like a small road bumper to him. His demands and expectations are too high and you have to sacrifice your whole life to reach his level. Haiiihhh Dr Shark....

Another subject is taught by Dr Amer - the greatest monster on earth. He's too complicated and too stern, even a tiny mistake could give a huge impact to the students. Sometimes, he could be very cruel to the students. Many have cried because of him and lots of others have lost their confidences because of him too. That's the reason why there are only 10 students are taking his subject for this semester, including me. But luckily, Dr Amer seems like to like us and he…

To Love is to Let Go....

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When I was in primary school, I used to encounter this question quite a lot of time "What frighten you the most?" It is because I was well known as a very brave girl before. I did stunts, I involved in mystical things and I risked my life for the things I'd love to do. That was me before. But, since I was young, I only afraid of 2 things - failure and losing my love ones.

I was a great young girl before. I scored the top 1 in the examinations for 6 years in a row. I was excellent in the curricular activities too. Every activity that I participated, there must be a good outcome of it. I led my school and every clubs that I joined. But that was temporary. After that, I have undergone a series of failures. It was the hardest time in my life but I've learnt a lot from it. Facing a fear will help us to overcome it.

I remember my conversation with Zakuan in the car yesterday. I asked him, "Which one do you think will suffer more, …

My Belated Birthday

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1st of all, happy belated birthday to me. Hehe.... I never take birthday as a serious thing (except for Zakuan. He forgets, he dies.. hahaha) but for this year I feel a little bit excited with my own birthday. Maybe sebab this is going to be my last birthday in UTP, so I forced everyone to remember my birthday. Haha!
As stated in the previous posting, my birthday was during my field trip to Putrajaya. Thanks God it was a good trip. So, I could only celebrate my birthday with Zakuan a day after the trip which was on 24 Feb. Sanggup tak pergi civil nye family day kat Teluk Batik. Hehe...We went to Gunung Lang instead. Tak larat dah nak travel jauh2. From Wednesday to Saturday keje pegi trip jek.
Gunung Lang is a nice place. You can ride a boat to go to the island - not really an island, it looks like a man-made park, but surrounded by a natural lake. Actually, it was our 3rd time being there tp tak pernah berpeluang amik gambar sebab we only went t…

Field Trip - Part II

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On the way back to UTP kitorang stopped kat RNR Tapah. Jumpe rector tgh makan kat situ. Apelagi, kitorg dgn gediknye gi ngadu kat rector psl driver tak best tu. We didn't expect that he cared so much. Sayaaannngg rector! So, masa trip ke Putrajaya keesokan harinya, he provided us with the best drivers in UTP. Haha!

Disebabkan penat yang melampau semasa di Melaka, I was like takde mood sgt utk ke putrajaya. Sampai kul 10pm esok kul 6.30am dh kene travel lg. Dahla kitorg diarahkan to wear proper and formal attire, sah2 trip ni akan skema. It was what I thought. So, subuh2 tu, orang lain tgh tido saye bising membebel sorang2. Iron baju x licin la, uzur pon kene bgn awal la, ngantuk la... Sian my rumet dgr saye membebel. Heh! As I said before, both trips were not going on as expected. Kalo kat Melaka, saye expect best tapi kurang best. Yang kat putrajaya ni I expected it to be dull but it was a great trip. And it was my birthday on that day. What…

Field Trip - Part I

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It's been so long the civil engineering students didn't go to any long-distance field trips. And for this semester macam qadak trip la pulak - 3 field trip skaligus (melaka, putrajaya & johor bharu). Two trips had been successfully completed. Both trips were not going on as expected. First trip ialah kat Melaka on the last Friday.

Damn! I was very kelam kabut before the trip. We should leave for Melaka at 2pm. I got class from 8-9 am. Then, kelam kabut siapkan progress report. Then, pergi hantar fotostat buku HSE protocol to be brought to Melaka. After that, Zak and I went to Batu Gajah to take the stuff ordered by my fellow friends. Some of them wanted to bring the stuff to Melaka so by hook or by crook we got to go there. Can you just imagine, the bus would be leaving by 2pm and we reached UTP at 1.40pm. At that time, we haven't packed anything yet. Nak iron baju tudung lagi. And time tu jugak these people dtg amik barang. But s…

Ketumbit

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Dulu, each time kalo sakit perut, pening kepala and rase loya2 nk muntah, mesti org akan wat lawak bodoh cakap "Pregnant kot..." Last Thursday, bgn2 tido jek mata kanan rase pedih2, rase cam ade jerawat bawah kulit yg blom kluar lg. It was really painful when it was in contact with sumthing. Of coz I can't stop my eyes from blinking so each time my right eye berkelip2 sakitnye xley cite.

Unfortunately, that day was a busy day so xde mase nk gi klinik. What I could do was just asking around what had happened to my eye. All gave me the same answer "Nk tumbuh ketumbit kot" and bile saye tanye ape puncanye, all gave me the same answer too "Skodeng". Caittt!! So, ptg tue bile dh setel seme kelas baru ade pluang nk jumpe doktor, kt klinik utp jek. Cett, doktor pon 2x5 wat lawak bodoh. Mmg la nice lawak tu, tapi... saye kn tgh sakit, sampai ati korang.. huhu...

Anyway saye sgt hepi sbb doktor target sy akan sembuh dlm ma…

I Know Myself Better

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There was a boy who used to mess up with his life - family, friends, study, business and a few other distractions that led him to a miserable and inorganized life. He didn't have a stand in his life, flowed freely as a tide. He didn't have the art of managing the time well so he did bad in his study.

Then one day, he was gifted to meet this girl. She listened to all of his stories that other people didn't know. She helped him all-out to clean up all the mess. It took years for this girl to transform this boy. And now, the boy has so much improvements in his life, and in certain things, much more better than the girl herself. He became more outspoken, participate actively in lectures and be a good leader. Every step that he makes, he makes it confidently. He used to target a certain figures (confidential) as his final CGPA but he scored that figures 4 semesters earlier. The girl is very proud of him. She feels like she has managed to r…

To All Credit Card Holders : Read This!!

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I've just got a phone call (03-60221045) from a Malay girl who claimed herself as a staff from Multipurpose Membership Card. As I heard the company name, I just ended the call without saying anything. It's a scam. Thanks to Hairi who had forwarded the email regarding this matter earlier. Now I realize how powerful the internet could be. And I hope that my blog could be powerful enough to deliver the same reminder to all other card credit holders. Hehe... Beware everyone. Read the cases below, I just extracted this from the email given to me.

Case 1:
from email kat bawah, saya nak bagitau yang saya pun terkena camtu jugak dan dah terbagi no.kat belakang kad saya.Saya pun pelik sebab caller tu ( melayu girl ) tanya no yang kat belakang & siap tanya kita punya signature tu terang ke x ? What for..? Caller tu akan buat kita tertarik dengan tawaran dia kononnya kita akan dapat discount bla..bla..bla. ..dan dia akan pos semua dokumen kat kit…

Feeling Lonely

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Housemates semua dah balik beraya cina (heh!). Rumet pun dah balik, lepas subuh trus gi. x smpt salam2 peluk2 cium2 seme. huhu... Zak plak balik rumah kejap sbb amik adik dia yg tersangkut di Tanjung Malim semalam. This is my 1st time waking up from my sleep with an empty heart...

Hmmm.. sometimes we think we can handle the world alone. Sometimes we think we are strong enough and don't need other people around to support us. Yeah, that's me btw. I raised my own life since I was small and I always think that I could live alone without the help from others. But then I realize, yess, I might not need their help, but I need them to keep me alive. I need people around me to keep me strong to face the challenge. Now, saye sangatlah terasa lemau utk berbuat apa2. Huhu..

Tak selalu saye rase camni. Rasenye dalam 2-3 tahun tu adela kot sekali feeling this way. It depends on my schedule. Kalau busy maybe I don't have time to layan such this feel…

Hipokrasi

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Just submitted one assignment and now got to prepare the slides for the tomorrow's presentation. I've finished my part btw but I have to do extra works as all of my groupmate are just starting their minor parts. Hmmm... it's ok..let's just be cool about it. Just wanna burst out a few things here. I've just met one of my pal and we shared some stories. Owh gosh, I hate opening up an old story but today I feel like I do like writing it here. Maybe my workloads have stirred my emotion and one way to let it go is by letting it go - HERE. Hehe...

Ok, some of my friends already knew what was my biggest fight in UTP is all about. The fight was between me and a very little innocent cute girl who looks perfect in the eyes of others. I've expected this - if we fought, people would automatically judge me as the bad side, based on her external appearance of course. So, we've made a deal, if in case people come to me and asked me t…

Has The New Semester Started?

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I'm in the civil lab comp at the moment. I only got 1 class today from 9-11. It is 12 o'clock in the afternoon now and I'll have a weekly meeting with my beloved SV, dr SHARK (hehe..) at 1 pm. The name sounds harmful and his face proves it. But as you get closer to him, he could be your best pal ever.. There's still one more hour left and I decide to just stay here until the time comes.

My initial plan was to search for the literature review for my FYP, as much as possible if it is possible. But as usual, my mind would start to flow to something else. I don't understand what had happened to me lately. I still have no courage to start my new semester. I've watched 20 series of Bawang Putih Bawang Merah all over the weekends. 1 series take 1 hour long to finish, which means I have wasted 20 hours in front of my monitor watching that dramatic series. I've asked my roomate to solat hajat for our room, just in case if there…

Istidraj - Credit to Polo

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Waahh! Lama sungguh x join usrah. Thanks polo for the email, dapatla jugak pengisian jiwa. Dari Abdullah bin 'Amr R. A, Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda, " Sampaikanlah pesanku biarpun satu ayat.." So, nie nak share sesama la article yg di forwardkan oleh polo nie. (baik jugak ko yerkk polo...bese fwd mende2 x snonoh jek kt aku. hehe..)

Minggu lepas, kawan seofis Fendi tanya "Kenapa kadang kala kita lihat seseorg insan tu sentiasa dapat kegembiraan spt dapat naik pangkat, murah rezeki dll sedangkan dia tu selalu melakukan kemungkaran?".

So, Fendi pun jawablah yang kdg kala sesuatu anugerah Allah swt kpd seseorg individu tu bukanlah sebab Allah sayangkan hambanya itu tetapi kerana Allah nak tengok sejauh mana keikhlasan orang itu. Allah nak tengok adakah hambanya itu akan menyedari bahawa Allah amat bermurah hati dengannya jadi sepatutnya dia bersyukur dan berubah menjadi baik. Tapi jika individu itu masih tidak reti bersyukur maka…

Buat Teman Dekat Tapi Jauh....

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Dari kecil hinggalah aku menjejakkan kaki ke UTP ni, aku sgt bersyukur kerana sentiasa ditempatkan di golongan kawan2 yg tak pernah menyesatkan aku. Aku akui, pandangan mindaku dalam soal pergaulan tidak begitu luas,terhad di ruang legar tempurung yg memagari mindaku. Sangkaanku, itulah erti sebenar sebuah dunia. Tapi aku silap. Semakin aku menginjak dewasa, semakin aku sedari bahawa tempurung yang kudiami sebelum ini sungguh kecil... Dan semakin hari makin aku sedari bahawa dunia di luar tempurungku itu sgt kotor. Lantaran tidak bersedia menerima hakikat berada di dunia baru, byk kesilapan yg aku lakukan dlm langkahan kehidupanku. Pernah aku tertanya2... perlukah aku terus melangkah dgn caraku? Sekian lama mengumpul kekuatan, aku simpulkan, ya.. aku perlu melangkah dengan caraku tapi jgn disekat langkahan org lain. Jangan dipaksa org lain melangkah seiring dgn kita tp tunjukkanlah dia jalan mana yg harus dituju.....

Isu kali ini mungkin agak sen…

What a Horror Wedding!

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During this semester break, my 2 permanent jobs were being a desperate housewife and an excellent driver. On 04/01/07, I fetched my mum at her office as usual. But then she asked me to accompany her to a wedding ceremony of her friend's sister. As she popped out the question, I was clueless and gave her no answer for almost 5 minutes. My heart refused to go and I didn't know why. But, I couldn't just let my mum go there by herself. So I went there too.

It was a very simple wedding ceremony. There were only four tables provided under one pavilion. We reached there at about 5.15pm and people were getting lesser by that time. Thanks God. I don't really like being in a big crowd. Hehe... I knew no one there except some of my mum's friends. I just makan senyap2 there, talked to nobody. A very thin young girl entertained us and served us the food. No buffet.

Then I followed my mum entering the house to see the bride & the groom b…

Welcome 2007

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A brand new blog for a brand new year. To those who had followed my previous blog, sorry for the incompletion of the story line. I have to delete all the previous postings due to one single reason that scared me to death! To those who had known it, hahaha then... Anyone who hasn't known yet but interested in knowing the reason, you may ask me personally. I'm not going to include that scary fact here. Hehehe... =p

Unlike any other years, I didn't have a chance to make a wish or to set my new year's resolution for this year. I just don't feel like it. Hoho.. Is it because I have satisfied with my life throughout 2006? Yes, it might be the reason. I have done my best in 2006. Luckily good things were always by my side and I have ended the year 2006 with a good closing.

Or maybe it is because I was too exhausted. Yes, I've used a lot of energy throughout 2006. My brain, body and emotion worked endlessly, starting from the inter…

Blog Transfer

I have started this blogging stuff during my internship (2005) and I used Friendster's Blog as the beginning - by that time, I didn't know yet that there are a lot of other options instead of Friendster. Then, when I involved seriously in the internet marketing, I discovered this Blogspot - very user-friendly to promote my products and yet, it's free. It has most of the functions that I need (for Friendster, I need to pay for the extra functions). Since I feel more comfortable using this Blogspot, I've decided to transfer all my previous postings from the Friendster's Blog to here. The URL is shortened and easy to be remembered by the readers (if they are any), plus I get all the convenience to write my stories of heart here....